Looking back on our last three lockdowns has been incredibly eye opening. It really has been a wirl-wind of a year… can you believe we really thought this would last 2 weeks?! Below I have taken clippings of extracts I wrote during each period, I like to think they reflect all our outlooks at those times, though I guess they are mainly applicable to myself.
17th April 2020 –
I’m not sure anyone would have ever been able to predict having such extreme measures implemented over our livelihoods, but the world can tend to surprise you like that. We are now entering our third week of “lockdown”, as people keep calling it. Initially I felt lonely, but moreover angry. The A-level exams I had been working towards over the past two years suddenly became a matter of fiction, and my friends memories of the past. Even though I am still devastated I am no longer able to prove my intelligence through an exam paper, I have succumbed to the realisation that this is not the only quality I hold to invest time in. It has dawned on me now, in our now slow-paced routine, that I was merely existing, rather than living. Perhaps it’s the warmer weather influencing my optimistic outlook, but we need to realise that there is so much more to life than letters in an envelope, such as exploring nature or appreciating the smaller aspects of life you never took the time to value before. Considering it now, arguably the world did need to stop for a moment, to allow us to re-evaluate what is most important to us; our friends, family and spending time with each other – not money, power or ownership. I do not think society will ever go back to being the ‘norm’, whatever that ‘norm’ was in the first place.
November 22nd 2020 –
From what I can gather, us as a nation deem this second lockdown a half-hearted effort. Unlike in March, schools remain open, yet cases are still rising. In contrast with the last restriction period, my daily routine doesn’t appear to have many significant changes to its set up. As a key worker now, both my jobs will still be running, as will my newly founded place in online university. I am overjoyed I have been able to achieve a place on the degree course I applied for, it seems all my hard work did in fact pay off in the end, as it should. Grateful to be working is probably the phrase I would choose to describe my situation right now, as others are not as fortunate, with high rates of unemployment and food bank usage increasing. I hope 2021 will be a better year for us, now that scientists are close to finding a vaccine.
21st February 2021 –
The rain on my window reflects my sombre mood at times this week. The nation is in agreement that the dreadful weather is not aiding anyone’s motivation, and I find myself wishing for the first lockdown again, considering any chance of pre-Covid reality is pretty much out of the question. After nearly a whole year of living in a pandemic, it is clear our reality as we know it has changed forever. We can now only learn from our past mistakes, and look towards a more positive future, whatever form that may take.
Love El xx